Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Asking for Mountains


When Emil and I first began our job search we knew we wanted to teach in a community that had a variety of outdoor activities. As much as we loved living in the rolling corn and soybean fields of the Midwest for 5 years, we were ready to live in a more diverse atmosphere. So naturally, when we stumbled upon Joshua Springs Christian School located on the border of Joshua Tree National Park, we were thrilled with the promise of mountains and cliffs!

Day 1 - Easy going in Kansas
With the acceptance of jobs, we immediately knew we would have to haul ourselves and our belongings to the West Coast. Moving after our wedding from the East to the Midwest was quite easy. A little 4x8 U-Haul trailer was able to accommodate what little belongings we had at the time with room to spare. And once free of the Pennsylvania hills, our drive was smooth and completely manageable.

This move; however, had a different feel. We lurched out of Sioux Center with feelings of anticipation and excitement as well as some heaviness, not only in our larger and more dense trailer, but as we left a community that we had grown so closely into as students, church members, employees and teachers. Driving westward through Nebraska and Kansas was very comfortable. The level interstate and county routes were surrounded by the same familiar corn and soybean fields. But as the sun set, we neared Colorado and the foothills of the Rocky Mountains with a little more strain (especially as our exhaust blew a hole). This began our 3-day struggle through many mountains and large hills.
 
Day 1 - Soybeans and corn more miles
Part of me regretted our choice of picking a school so, so far away from our home in the Midwest and our homes on the East Coast. The farther we drove, the more nervous I became and the reality of just how far away California really is sank in. As the surroundings became more and more unfamiliar, I became increasingly anxious. I began asking myself why I would ever want to move someplace so dissimilar to where I had ever lived before? Why would I ever want to be so far from our families? Why did we choose to relocate ourselves to the desert?!

Day 3 - Chugging up a hill with Albuquerque in the rearview
I eventually broke down. The fears and uncertainties took all that was left of my confidence and I crumbled. That night I read in Experiencing God Day by Day, a devotional I’m working through by Henry and Richard Blackaby, of how Caleb chose to inhabit the mountains rather than the lush valleys as the Israelites divided land. Caleb knew that it would be harder to fully rely on God if he chose to live in the promises of the valley and instead chose to strengthen and test his faith in God by choosing to overcome his enemies in the mountains.

Day 4 - Winding through Arizona
After living a summer of relaxation and comfort on Prince Edward Island, with the endless hospitality of my in-laws, I realized what a peaceful valley I had settled into and how little I called upon God both in praise and for strength.  Like Caleb, accepting and embracing the mountains of the West and of our new lives here in California has redirected my outlook on life and strengthened my walk with God as well as my relationship with Emil. Can I overcome mountains on my own? Certainly not. God has placed these mountains throughout our trails so that we may fully rely on Him while also leaning on one another as husband and wife. It was this final sentence that opened my eyes to God’s will for our lives as we begin this next chapter together: “Seek out the mountains and you will witness God doing things through your life that can be explained only by His mighty presence.” 

1 comment:

  1. I can relate a little, Karisa.
    When my plane landed in PEI, I cried for a while before I could work up the courage to get off and start my new life.

    But look how God has blessed that decision - can't WAIT to see what He does with you two in California! LOVE you!

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